I’m ready to curl up into a ball
don’t want to move if I do I might fall.
My eyes are red and puffy from tears
I haven’t felt this pathetic in years.
Old hurts resurfacing, killing me
you can’t understand because you don’t see.
Can’t let go of the emotional Hell
need time to recover, time to get well.
Nobody understands the pain I feel
they’ve no idea what is show or for-real.
Tears erupting the moment I’m alone
burning my skin, cutting me to the bone.
Knocking back glass after glass ‘til I’m numb
not satisfied with what I’ve become.
Drowning the memories one after one
‘til all are confused and I’m left with none.
The pain remains standing, refusing to bow
I’m lost and don’t know which way to turn now.
Can’t escape the horrors I’ve seen and felt
refusing to shuffle the cards I’ve been dealt.
Can’t see past the words engraved on my soul
’twas your last dire attempt at keeping control.
Time and time again the wounds almost heal
I think I’m ok but, it’s all been surreal.
You’ve left me jaded unable to breathe
blinded by pain but, unable to leave
I don’t want these memories tormenting me
take back what you’ve done and let me be free!